Finding Neutral
I am in Old Fort, North Carolina in a pretty little house deep in the woods. I've been here since February 2nd. There is a creek flowing through the property and not another house in sight. The signs on the trail I run say Bear Sanctuary. Of course they do. My hair was on fire when I arrived. It's day 21, though, and I think I'm on to something. Only I can prevent hair fires, right? My hair is a little singed, but the smoke is clearing. I came here to find neutral. And then to feel for first. To get still and to focus and to listen and to find a perfect relationship between clutch, shift, brake and throttle. What I'm finding instead is there's no perfect relationship between anything. There have been a lot of curves in the road this year - and it's been a bumpy ride. I'm in the woods to take a closer look at what makes my days feel so out of control and how this head-fire began in the first place. I want to figure out if maybe I can find the courage to lif...